chin up.

i think i am defined more then anything by my friends. that is so scary.

"to love at all is to be vulnerable. love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. if you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no-one, not even to an animal. wrap it careful around hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of selfishness. bus in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. it will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... the only place outside of heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love is hell." C.S Lewis.

i don't think i've posted this before. but i could be wrong, i do love this quote. it sums me up pretty well. i'm the wear-my-heart-on-my-sleeve kinda person, not in a romantic relationship kinda way but just, i will love you. through it all.

basically

i just wish i could whistle.

hold on my heart

i know my heart your strong,
got a feeling that you'll survive,
these lost and lonesome times.

hold on my heart, hold on my heart,
find your stronger part and hold on my heart.

thinking of him each day, when he is miles away,
you know it wont serve you well,
it's better for time to tell.

now you're growin, up wiser,
oh, your not so easily crushed,
still innocent and strange,
all your strength still remains.



oh sarah blasko, i do enjoy you endlessly.




p.s- i really enjoy this one alot too. we don't have a picture together and i'm not into that fact at all.


images 1 and 2 found via we heart it.

the ones we love

it feels like my world has been spinning in double- time. meetings every few nights. trips to auckland. shows. youth. threw a baby shower. bridesmaid dress shopping. wedding planning. hens nights to be thrown. youth ball soon. team tonga. but my friends are so so good, so this is for them. in the order i find photos.


rosie posie, i enjoy it when you call me at 2am and keep me company until i fall asleep. i miss sleeping on your floor, i'm sad that i don't see you enough. please come back into my life alot.



beka, babe of my life. encourages me, loves me, hangs with me. the best neighbour you could ask for.



kayla, you are crazy but lovely. and i love you.



amie, i gave you your first nickname within 2 days of knowing you. you make me laugh so much. your bible verse texts get me through work. i just flippin love you.



jess, since you've gotten back there have been so many moment where i have LITERALLY stopped and just had a moment of being stoked that your back in my country. oh i enjoy you so much. arohanui x


josiah, oh rock, come back you dick. x



oh laura, my best, you will be my maid of honour. i can sit, laugh, cry, listen and just be with you. thank you.



leon, my braja- we are so alike in so many ways. i hope you are in my life forever.



kathleen, most sweet-hearted girl i know. you are a joy and light and i love you.


josh, i enjoy you, lets watch john mayer together soon. and august rush. and nick and norahs infinate playlist. good.



bill, you win on every level, you are so decent. i love having weekly(nearly) coffee with you. love you friend.



josh, oh my soul, what a year for you huh? by the end of it you'll have a new wife and a daughter, yikes. you are my brother and i will be here for you always.


bob, you rule, i'm glad your in my life. getting text updates on that boy made me laugh. vetz breakfasts made me laugh. you make me laugh! i'm stoked to lead with you!

p.s- amanda can we hang out soon please? i miss your face. we haven't taken a photo together all year, i think of you often. and lauren joy ness, same goes for you. come and have a holiday at my house please.

oh heart heart heart

"Her heart fed his vanity, so he kept it in his pocket and painted the masks he wore with the dreams he found in her unconditional affection. He put her down softly. So softly that his dark words sounded like love songs. He held no mirrors in his soul and looked at himself reflected in her eyes, because in them he found his flaws erased. She loved him and he loved that she loved him, so he broke her heart slowly. He furnished the spaces inside her with quiet confusion and self doubt until his invisible flaws became her own. He remained perfect in her eyes"



words by Paper Face