i love nights where i dont have to be anywhere or with anybody and i can just sit. reflect. get lost in my thoughts. (except of course when my night is interrupted with driving lessons, but they're well worth it when my dad says something like "you have to treat evry person on the road like they're an idiot, cause most are" ahahah)
i've just been searching around deviantart for pretty pictures, i love photography, it would be so wicked if i had sweet skills, but just the looking is so inspiring.
and today i picked up a book about sydney from the travel agents, 18 weeks to go.. im so excited! 7 days with some of my closest friends, shopping, cultures(we're staying so close to china town YAY!)the beach, krispy kremes, catching up with old friends and the main event hillsong conference... actually can not wait! i kinda feel like i shouldn't be spending so much time looking forward to it coz then half of the year will be gone already, woah. plus theres heaps of sweet stuff before it, like, youth camp next weekend, my birthday! easter camp in mystery creek (best camp in the world btw). probably something i need to really learn is loving the minute that i'm in, instead of just looking to the next thing, preparing myself for the next event, but just need to stop and be. be still and know...
The hand of the Lord was upon me, and he brought me out by the spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" I said, "O Sovereign Lord, you alone know". Then he said to me, "prophesy to these bones and say to them 'dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lords says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.' " So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. I looked and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them. Then he said to me, 'Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'this is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come from the four winds, O breath and breathe into these slain, that they may live. ' " So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet- a vast army. Then he said to me: "Son of man these bones are the whole house of Israel. They say 'Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.' Therefore prophesy and say to them: 'This is what the Sovereign Lord says: O my people, I am going to open up your graves and bring you back up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel.
woah, I need the breath of God into my life. Today was actually such a terrible day and I feel dried up, I'm trying to give more of myself out to help as many people as possible, but it never stops. Somebody will always end up dissapointed, if that person is you, I'm so sorry. Because I know what its like, I hate being let down, most of all I hate being let down consistently though... I will always try and help, I'm always thinking of you, because I love you. Please know that. Also, I have hope, I have hope in my Jesus, the shadow proves the sunshine and all of that.
Listening to: The Shadow Proves the Sunshine- Switchfoot
hello you, right now i'm almost speechless as to what to say to you. but on the other hand im really not. You made me really sad to be honest, I don't understand where what your saying came from. Sucks that I'll always be there for you and you'll take advantage of that. Sucks even more that you think that situation is reversed cause you listen to other people... other people that don't even know. So right now, you don't have time.. apparently.. I'll always be here, cause I always am.
You don't realise how much I love you, we only get to hang a couple of times a year at the most, but you mean alot to me! You have such an amazing outlook on life, I aspire to be like you, your passion for you church and youth group inspires me, you just love it, not coz you have to. I know thats weird, but I admire people that are just so passionate about stuff for all the right reasons. I'm seriously considering comin to see you in the next few months if you can't get up here this year. Love your face.
I'm sorry that I didn't spend enough time with you that weekend, I regret it coz I haven't seen you since and I really miss you! You are growing so much my girl, becoming this amazing woman of God, I love watching you. I just love YOU! You have a beautiful heart, and it sounds cliche but it truly does radiate, people can see it in you, I can see it in you.
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. But I can't watch you like this either, it hurts too much. I miss all the times we had, they were some of the best of my life, but I don't think it could ever be the same, and thats the worst part. I love you. I always will.
First was Primal Getaway, it had its moments of awesomeness and its moments of tears, both were possibly just as neccesary at the other though. I got to spend time with Lauren with was the best part, that our our pimpin' 18 person tent, that I almost wish we were the only ones sleeping in.. ahahaha, selfish or what... worship was the absolute best way to bring in the new year i think.
Then I went on a roadtrip with Kelly, it was fun, uhh yeah. mmm.
Then back to work with plenty of adventures thrown in the mix, visits to metropolis, picnics at the gardens, ricky gervais party with jess, wyks and carl, pool partys at my house, did i mention how cute james and elises wedding was!? (being seated at the naughty table at the recpetion was a winner hah.) going to thrive church, going for some sweet sweet indian food with thrive. then pretty soon it was PARACHUTE.
I am crazy about Parachute, I start smiling way too much and getting giddy and the few days leading up to it I actually get kinda jumpy... ahh yeah, excitement to the max, Bex re-enters my life (we fit ya see) and stays with us, we have a pretty freakin mean(and exclusive ;]) set up thanks to my couch buying skills on trade me and josh's truck driving skills staying in line over night then meeting us in there at the POWERED site I found, genius I know. Faves of the weekend were Shooting Stars (obvs) The Ember Days, Switchfoot, finally seeing Mumsdollar back in action, aswel as all the other locals. Ahh God and music, it's a powerful thing... OH! I also didn't get sunburnt! Holla! And got to see and hang out with awesome people, eat endless amounts of slushies and iced coffees and spend barely any money, nice. It was over way too soon, but it was beautiful, despite the tears at the end coz of silly people. Venting over a frozen tropical Keri juice was healing ahahaha. That boy doesn't pop up all that much, good and bad I guess. mmmmm. moving on.
Week after Parachute me, Beka, Em and Israel took off to TGA ALL DAY to see The Ember Days play, we hung with Lauren. I LOVE LAUREN. and we went to Wendys (who were out of large cups, uhmm what!? so unimpressed!) then I visited my future husband aka Daniel Ness ;] kidding.
And now I'm back at work but with SO much to look forward to the next few weeks/months! It's mental and I'm just tyring to go crazy on saving for SYDNEY IN JULY! wowwww! So amping for that, love travel, love that I get to go with some of my best friends, love that God had totally been hooking us up with sweet cheap flights and accom, next bestthing will be if Mel can come over from Melbourne for it and if I can save lots of money to spend on fun and exciting things! And I'm starting to get kind of keen for winter, I love winter fashions, the boots and scarves and hoodies and long cardis and flanno! Plus hot chocolates, cuddling in bed, norah jones on the bus and dark nailpolish! My autumn fashion quarterly made me heaps excited too ahaha, mmm. Its been crazy lots of laughter and a few tears, things that didn't work out the way I'd hoped, but I am so thankful. I don't really know what I'm gunna be doing next, work wise and such, I don't really plan on quitting my current job but I'm open to whatever. I will follow you...